Dress Crisis

I spent yesterday reading about how to talk to your parents after you've eloped and basically didn't find anything I didn't already know. Basically, everyone talked about how to involve them afterward, not how to actually broach the topic. So, at this point I might do the unthinkable and email... which is terrible I know. Thank goodness we've got time to plan a little better.

Anyway, I was looking at these articles and seeing all these normal sized brides in beautiful white dresses and I found myself questioning my decision to go short and red. I had a little bit of a freak-out on the drive home thinking about it. In the end though, I decided to stick with my original decision of a shorter bridesmaid style dress, but to possibly change the color.

Why? You only get one shot to wear whatever you want for your wedding, so why not big and white? But the trouble is, I'm not any good at dressing myself. I'd have to go to like a David's Bridal with an appointment, on a weekday (to get the best service) and try on dresses several sizes too small for me to see what they look like to get an idea of what isn't horrible. Then, I'd have to go home and remember this information and recall it later so that I can order the dress for way cheaper on Bridal Zoom.There are several problems with this, not the least of which is I don't get time off. My only vacation this year will probably be my wedding and that doesn't leave me with a lot of days left over. Another problem is what will happen if I buy a dress on the internet and I don't like it. It's been made to my specifications: I can't return it. I'd have to order another. It takes them a month to make a dress so by the end of all this trying on and ordering and ordering again it may be June. Then, what if I still don't like the dress? Boned. I'm certainly not wearing a dress I hate to my wedding. Oh sure, I could buy it from David's Bridal but I'm not made of money.

I told Johnny what I was thinking and in the usual fashion he said I'd be beautiful no matter what and left it at that but I continued to fret until about 10:30 when I made the decision above and then decided it was time for bed. Now, the issue is that of color, the main one being I can't really see the colors until I'm actually holding the dress. There's a teal sort of blue that I like very much, but the possibility is high it will clash with my yellowish skin and I'll look like a zombie.

Thank god we're not having a wedding wedding because I don't think I could handle having a crisis every day about what color china we're having at the reception, and losing my brains because the chargers don't mach the bridesmaids AND THEY WERE SUPPOSED TO!

129 more days, then it will all be over. So help me god.